What have I done?

When Asmodeus told me about the ring in his pocket and the girl who has been trying to make him remember things from his terrible past, I begged him to put it out of his mind. Who is she, anyway? He says that he doesn't know. But looking at him there, I had the sudden realization that I could lose possession of him... something came over me, the discovery that my feelings for my new demon companion ran far deeper than I ever thought they could.

I summoned him to protect me from - and prove something to - my love Adrion. But even in such a short time, Asmodeus has proven well-deserving of my devotion in his own right. And in that instant, when I saw the ring and heard the things this other woman had been telling him - all lies, I'm sure - a passionate protectiveness welled up in me, and I did something that perhaps I should not have done. I invited the demon into my bed, lost myself in his kiss, let myself forget completely about Adrion and all our other troubles.

Adrion was the first and only man I have ever slept with, before my dark consort. He was frail and willowy, dark and exotic but all compliance and softness. Asmodeus is a different creature altogether, slender but powerful and, lurking beneath the surface, possessed of an incredible and violent appetite. It was if I awakened him for the first time from his sombre, brooding silence... and I am blushing now to recall it.

Have I made a mistake? For the first time, I fear Asmodeus and the fire that I saw smoldering in his eyes. But... though I perhaps should not have done this thing with him, I can't say I regret it.

My mind is made up; I will keep him far away from this strange woman and her lies.